Let God Write My Love Story

Heart issues always seem to get me writing again, don't they?

So I met a guy from my church many moons ago - I swear it's been over a year. He's a friend of one of my friends. I've been interested in him since then. I'd see him around but never speak to him. You know me and my issues - I didn't think I was important enough to be remembered. (Hopefully I've grown a little since then.) Anyway, I've never said anything to anyone about him. Just in the back of my mind, I was interested.

Jump to this past July. We were supposed to go to Family Camp. I was super excited because finally I'd get to talk to him and find out more about him. I was just intrigued enough to want to know more. We were all going to drive together so I just figured at some point, we'd be in the car for hours together and I'd finally get to know some things! Then he wasn't able to go. I was bummed. Then it ends up that I had to get my appendix out, so I didn't go either.

Jump to tonight. I was asked by my home group buddies to go to this thing - hear a missionary speak - and this guy was the one who organized it. Finally! I'd be in a small setting and I'd get to talk to him! After a year of being interested, I think I deserve to at least know a little about him. Well, I didn't get to talk to him very much. We listened to the missionary and then talked very briefly. But now it's gone from being interested to full blow attraction. There's just something about him. . . .

Anyway, now what? My friend reminded me that God's perfect timing always works. I agree. I know that to be truth. I joked with her about not being able to talk to him, but in all honesty, I am very disappointed. I just want to talk to him. That's it. It's not much. So what is God waiting for? I'm tired of waiting, but want to let God do it all. But now I've got this attraction that doesn't have anywhere to go! And I want to scheme. You know - push it, pull it, figure out how to finagle something. But I also don't want to scheme because I want to want what God wants! It's just so dang hard.

Sigh.