God is Good

Wow. I wrote that previous post before church and then was slammed multiple times by God on the way and during church. Awesome!

First was the Casting Crowns song Who Am I. There I am listening to the world, feeling lonely and unloved. In case you don't know the song:

Verse 1
Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.
Verse 2
Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Who am I? I am loved by God and He's all I need, all I will ever need. Then it was their song Voice of Truth. Which voice am I going to listen to?

Chorus
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
the Voice of Truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the Voice of Truth says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth

Then Matt's sermon was fantastic! First of all he starts with a huge Star Wars reference which just about made my day. He summarized all of Empire Strikes Back and talks about how it is the good guys getting beat up though out the entire movie and then the movie just ends. He said that's how his sermon was going to be today. I loved it. His little summary in 5 minutes was brilliant. But even more brilliant was the sermon. It was about our total depravity.

We sin and never really feel the magnitude of it. He gave reasons why - we never make it personal. We feel like we are basically good people - we can always find someone who is less moral than ourselves. So we never really feel the weight of our sin pressing on us.

He referred to what CS Lewis called the intimate dance of community between the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I'm not familiar with where this comes from, so forgive me if I butchered it. We are invited to be part of that Great Dance with the Trinity. We are invited to be in a deep personal relationship with our Savior. If that relationship is not primary in our lives, then all our other relationships suffer because of it. I've slacked off in making God first. He is enough for me. When I love Him first and most, then everything else works.

My singleness is God's plan for me. It is where He has me right now. And it's for His glory. I don't know how it's for His glory and I may never know. I may be single for the rest of my life - or (I pray for this) the right man for me will come along. But whatever it is, it is for His glory. Why do I forget that?

So my loneliness - the best way to remedy that would be to seek Him first and most.