Monday, February 26, 2007

Half

I was writing to a friend and this came out:
Honestly I just feel like a half – I don’t feel like a whole. Does that make sense? I’m just a half and I hate being a half. Do you know what that feels like? It’s like my whole being is screaming out to be a whole and I still feel like just a half. What I’m trying to get from my brain to my heart is that I can be a whole ~ with Christ.
I don't want to be a half anymore.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I wouldn't assume that none of us knows how that feels - we may not be in that moment in our lives at this time, but the pain of that feeling is very real, very vivid and probably more common than you think.

Erin said...

Sorry - didn't mean to assume anything. I was just trying to think of a way to explain it to my friend and that's what I wrote to her.

I know I'm not the only one to feel this way.

In fact, my realization today was that God created us this way. I will continue to feel like a half until I fully surrender to Him.

No offense meant by my comment at all. :-)

Erin said...

Actually I went ahead and edited it out.

Anonymous said...

Not offended! I promise! I was at work and in a hurry - I MEANT to imply that you aren't alone - even from the perspective of some of us having been there as well... but I wrote too fast! And now I'm doing it again (writing too fast) because I need to take a shower and get the bed made... OK, you know what that means! =)

Anonymous said...

OK... now what I wrote at the end sounds "inapropriate" (well, I guess not if you're married), but either way that's not what I meant... I just like to have the bed made - before I go to bed... I need to shut up... sorry...going now.

Good night, my friend!