Not My Words

Someone else wrote this. I hope it's OK to use it here since I didn't really ask permission. I was reading through some old posts on another blog and was amazed how much the words from this person spoke to my own situation. I shouldn't be so amazed. I know it's God. He's showing me He loves me yet again. And letting me know that it's OK to keep asking for help over and over.

While reading these old posts, I also thought it was amazing that two people can quote so much of the exact same stuff. I promise, my quotes from George MacDonald came from my own reading. I didn't know/remember they were used by someone else a year ago. I kept seeing the same things over and over - even some quotes I've underlined in my book, but haven't posted here yet. I shouldn't be amazed by that either - we both just get the same things. Which helps to explain why this continues to be so hard for me.

Letting Go
Ask God - He is there - to take over your life. Tell Him that you give up...and He will take over, I know He will. It won't feel like He will, many times it won't...you will wonder time after time if He's there. Take heart, He's like that. He pulls away to let you see what you can do on your own...mostly I think He does it because He delights in hearing His children cry out for His help when they fail. And they do fail, over and over again. He knows a little secret that's really frustrating to us right now: what we need most at this stage in our development as humans is to cry out to Him and have Him teach us to succeed, with his hand guiding ours, and gently letting go, time after time, lest we think we can succeed in such an impossible task as life without Him. When you think He's not there, yell at (for) Him...tell Him that you don't think He's doing what you asked, tell Him that you are counting on Him, and tell Him to do his job or you'll die. The main thing is, don't stop talking to Him...give Him a piece of your mind every day, whether you're asking Him for the same thing over and over again, complaining about how you can't see Him or feel Him making a difference, or in the rare but so very spectacular moments when he throws a miracle in your face to remind you who's got things under control, tell Him thank you for being there when you had no reason before to believe He was. If He's never thrown a miracle in your face before, and you are upset enough about it, tell Him - He wants your complaints as well as your dependence.