So I get that God's protecting me from myself. I really do. And I thank Him for it. He knows more than me. He wants me for Himself. He sees the big picture while I only see about 2 seconds worth.
But here's my question (which I'm not really sure I want answered):
If He wants me protected so much, why can't He take away the sadness, the loneliness, the feelings of worthlessness that prevail because what I wanted to happen didn't happen? Why can't He protect me AND help me be happy with it?
What a long freakin' empty weekend. . . . . . . . . . . . . .
I sound so pathetic. Why don't I get off my butt and fill up the time? Do something constructive instead of sitting around in a pity party? All I've got are excuses. It's sad.
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You asked why God CAN'T do this or that for you...He CAN. He can remove those feelings of sadness, lonliness, and worthlessness. He can. You know that, but perhaps there is more to be gained if He doesn't remove them FOR you. I am sure it is beyond our ability to grasp the WHY's sometimes, but there is incomprehensible wisdom in all that He does or DOESN'T do. I know it is so hard! I do know!!!! But there is more to this story than what you are able to see or understand right now. Trust in that and in Him.
Erin- read Carlotta's latest blog too. It may give you a good perspective on this subject.
WOW - Amen to what Carlotta said... I can't think of anything to add.
Sometimes we are at the bottom of a very steep mountain sitting underneath a large pile of rocks that have fallen on us, we are in soooo much pain, and we know God knows it. Why no help? Is He just going to let us die there? Doesn't He care a wit? Maybe He just doesn't like us either. Maybe we've misjudged Him, mistook Him for someone who cares. No, wrong questions, and "wronger" answers. He does care, He hurts for US, but there are times He knows it will do us more harm than good to do IT for us. My father used to say to me when I had fallen or failed, "Are you just going to lay there and cry, or are you going to get up try again?" God's wisdom is often totally hiden from us when we are defeated and down, but He will, once we have pulled ourself together, quit whining, and start climbing again, give us renewed strength, give us understanding, and restore us. But, my experience is that His help comes only AFTER WE DECIDE we want things to CHANGE and begin to MOVE.
I ask my kids all the time at school, "Are you going to just sit there on your dead horse?" They think I'm nuts, but get the point.
I appreciate your comments Jim. I know I'm whining. I don't really like hearing you say that, but I suppose it's the truth. I'm trying to figure out HOW to move. I know I want change. I've taken steps toward it, but it's not happening fast enough for me.
You are talking to what WAS a "world-class whinnnnner" many years ago, but I write to encourage you, NEVER to put you down. Today, in my garage, I have a large metal sign that I paid good money for that says, NO WHINNING. It is not for others, it's a reminder to me NOT to whine, but instead to get mad and FIGHT. God gives victory to those who will fight.
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