Pretend like there is this thing. It's a great thing and it can be looked at in two distinct ways. You begin looking at the thing one way, but slowly you start seeing it a second way too. You can see it clearly both ways - the first and the second. The second way is a more powerful view, but you never stopped looking at the thing the first way. When you are looking the second way, you can still look at it the first way too.
The second way gets weird so you try to go back to only looking at the thing the first way. But it's really really hard. The second way keeps jumping to the front. So then you have to give up looking at the thing at all. And you are sad.
You begin to miss looking at the thing in the first way since you aren't looking at it at all anymore. That's what you think about the most - that first wonderful way to look at the thing. Since the second way is more powerful than the first way, you wonder if you can go back to looking at the thing the first way only. You don't think you can. And the worst part is the thing realized you were looking at it with the second view and the thing remembers stuff. You are realizing as more and more time passes since you looked at the thing at all, you really miss looking at it the first way. So you feel like you screwed everything up by ever looking at the thing the second way. But you couldn't help it.
The first way to look at the thing is very much missed. You hope and pray that you get the chance to look at it the first way again someday, but you are afraid your chance is lost forever.
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If the "thing" is mature and can handle the memory of you looking at it the second way without judging you or mentioning it, if you only see it the first way now, that's cool. If the "thing" can't handle it, or you can't stick to just the first way forever, then move on.
It takes maturity, trust, and a desire to keep the first way alive - on BOTH sides - with you and the "thing".
Oh boy - my analogy is getting crazy. Your two cents is always welcome. If I put it out there, I have to be ready for other people's opinions. :-)
How can I say this? The thing is great. The thing is honest and trustworthy and showed me that those kinds of things are really out there. I had never seen a thing like it before. I didn't know the thing existed. The thing is just kind of broken right now. It is in a place of healing.
The whole problem lies with my eyesight and maybe with timing. Maybe. I don't know.
But the thing's not REALLY real. You all know that, right? It's just rambling weird analogies. Nothing personal. It doesn't MEAN anything. Right? You know that?
(whew - for a second there I thought you had me figured out!)
LOL. I did, too. We almost lost the mystery. :o)
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